Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Another day of past

Sorry folks, but this time I will be writing in my own tongue, I guess I will be able to express myself better.

Hazaar koshishon ke bawjood bhi najaane kyon main mere ateet se door nahi ho pa raha hoon. Kisi na kisi baat aur kisi na kisi mod per zindagi firse mujhe usi chaurahe per laa khada kar deti hai jaha se main badi mushkilo ke baad aage bada hota hoon. Ya to ye meri kamzori hai ki main apne ateet se peecha chuda hi nahi pata, ya fir mera durbhagya ki main ateet ki chaya mein hi apne vartamaan aur bhavishya ko banane aur jeene ki koshish karta rehta hoon. Humesha sochta hoon ki peeche palat kar nahi dekhunga, guzare raasto ki taraf nahi paltunga per fir bhi koi na koi choti si baat ateet mein kheech hi leti hai aur vartamaan ko jhanjod kar rakh deti hai. Kya ye meri galti hai ki mera ateet taqleefo bhara hai ya ye ki meri zindagi mein log hi aise aaye jinhone meri shiddat aur sharafat ka najayaz fayda uthaya? kyon main hi humesha duniya ke samne jhukoo aur kyon main hi is samaaj ke banaye qaayde kanoon ke saamne ghutne tekoo? kya mujhe meri zindagi jeene ka adhikar nahi, ya meri ye zindagi samaaj ke banaye niyamo ki karzdaar hai jise jab chahe jo chahe jaise chahe ghuma sakta hai?

samaaj ke vipreet jake kuch karta hoon to samaaj ninda karta hai, samaaj ke anusaar kuch karta hoon to dil aur dimag jhanjhod daalte hain, main karoo to kya karoo? apno ki sunta hoon ya apno ke sukh aur khushi ki sochta hoon to khud se dhoka karta hoon aur chit ko dukh deta hoon, apne chit ke sukh ki karta hoon to apno ko dukh deta hoon, aakhir aisa samaaj banaya hi kyon humne jisme hum apni bhi na kar sake aur apno ki bhi na kar sake?

4 comments

4 Comments:

Tarun said...

Darling,

Bhadiya hai tumko apna past yaad hai... pata chalta hai humko bhuley nahi..hehehe

Rahi baat kamzori aur strength its all in your mind, I cannot change it, its all upto you how you took it... I believe its your strength both emotionally and physically...baaki teri marzi..

jo chala gaya usey chod kar... jo hai unki kadar kar ...baaki sab theek hai..

Someone rightly said.... your past does not wants you to cry on it... but it wants to say that you are experienced now and move forward... so lets move forward...(its me)

Ek baat soonchi mainey .... now I am manager to lecture ki adat ho gayi hai.......hehehhehe


you remember tarzan , when he hops from one rope to other and move forward. Imagine if he keeps on holding the previous rope ..... what will happen will he move forward???

So learn from your past and move forward...jo sahi hai wo kar...pyar humara bhi hai, mummy- papa ka bhi aur bhaiya bhabhi ka bhi aur bhateijoo ka bhi....

bhaad mein gaye sab we are FAMILY...

Tarun said...

Its never too late to START

Poor In Java said...

I would quote your words only here "its all upto you how you took it" and it all depends on how you see it. Why does society and we all set the parameters for things on which we judge that a person is moving or not? Does moving in life only means letting past things go, or get hold on to someone or something else or in case of single people get married to someone so that you don't cling to your old memories?
Why can't a person be moving with his past, memories and still live with it in life? Is the person dead or has stopped living, if not, then I guess everything in the world is moving. Why do we have to be so rigid and comply to all norms of the society every time for every thing, why can't we do something that we want to do doesn't matter right or wrong?

Tarun said...

Darling your questions are your answers.... just read them with full stops not with question marks... you will get your answers..

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